Hunting

That's right! I'm hunting! But what I'm doing is slightly different from your typical hunting. Instead of using guns, I'm using resumes!

Alright, now that I'm done with the lame joke. I guess I'll get to the point. Job hunting is difficult. It may not be so hard for other people. But it's very hard for me. I find I'm stressing out about where to apply and whether or not they'll hire me or not. My parents tell me, no point in worrying, which is very true... but obviously something I can't do. It's terrible... depending on where I apply it's a slightly different type of worrying. Like for the jobs that you go in and hand in your resume and sometimes fill out an application form, so many thoughts that cause me to worry start rushing into my head. I'll be standing there with a meek smile on my face and asking for the job, and suddenly I'll thinking...

"Am I standing up straight? OH CRAP I'm slouching aren't I!!! OMG It's over!!!"
"I'm being to quite aren't I? Oh CRAP they'll never hire me if I'm too quiet!!!"
"SAY SOMETHING SMART!!!.... SMRT???"
"Try saying something other than, I'd like to apply for the job!"
"So how about that local sports team... wait that has nothing to do with this ARGH they'll never hire me if I'm so absent minded!"

It's awful. And when people tell me, don't worry about, you'll be fine, only makes things worse. I find I'll start thinking:

"Am I worrying too much? Do I look like I'm worrying? Oh crap I look scared don't I... what do I do!!! SMILE!!! SMILE!!!" *smiles awkwardly* *person looks at me funny* "...damn..."

I've been told that it'll get better eventually... but I'd really like to get over sooner than later, because I'd like to get a job relatively soon.

New things!

It's always nice to get new things! Just to make sure I'm not misunderstood, I'm not saying that old things are bad, I'll talk about the greatness that is old things later. Moving on! New things are always so nice! Just the way they look! Depending on what the item is! For example, a new car! When you get a new car, it's usually very clean both on the inside and the outside. When you see it or are driving in it you feel great! The new car smell, though some people dislike it, is something that I enjoy, it makes me happy!

Also usually new things are meant to replace the old things that are broken or no longer usable no matter what you do to try and fix it. For example... clothes! Let's say you have this pair of jeans that you've owned for awhile, but because of the amount of wear they see, they've got holes everywhere, the zipper won't zip, and the button is missing somewhere in Toronto! Usually in this case, you'd get a new pair of jeans! New things feel somewhat, fresh, though I'm sure there are plenty of ways to describe the feeling, I'm rather tired and cannot think properly. The only thing keeping me up is sugar... but alas, I'm running out of sugar!

:)

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Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from.
- Al Franken